My inspiration was dwindling. I could not "feel" God. With so many hours spent in prayer and conversations with God, well now, where did He go? I was doubting all I had been doing...wondering, "why?" With all the talks of "Praise the Lord" and "gratitude for everything", why, now, did I feel neglected? What was I doing wrong? I was witnessing big and small miracles in people's lives of whom Iwas praying for, yet I was still battling the "demons" in my own life. How could this be? What kind of testimony was I to my Lord? It was time for some serious prayer...So I prayed...for myself...for days...but God was not "showing up", or so I thought...Until today...when, in God's time, not my own I heard His voice within my soul..speaking to my heart.

Conversation With God

Ezekiel 2 : 10

"Take My words into your heart, all My words that I speak to you; hear them well."

Help me to follow You Lord; only Your will not mine be done. This is very difficult, Lord. I am trying to open my eyes and ears to You, Lord; help me.

Psalm 116 : 1-4

" I love the Lord because He has heard my voice in supplication. Because He has inclined His ear to me the day I called. The cords of death encompassed me; the snares of the nether world seized upon me; I fell into distress and sorrow, and I called upon the Name of the Lord; "Oh Lord, save my life!"

Lord Jesus, I praise You and I thank You for all things. Lord I surrender all I am to You; all my guilt, all my shame, all my weaknesses, all my pain. Because of the grace You give to me, I believe that I am made new and I will reside in your love and peace eternally. I lay all I am and all I do at the foot of Your cross, dear Jesus; I surrender myself to You. In Your name, Jesus, I pray. Amen.

Dear Jesus, help me to follow You; to follow Your ways, so that Your mercy will always be upon me. When I stumble, You will pick me up; if I stray You will gently guide me back to You. Lord, I claim all Your wonderful promises for my life if I follow You and keep Your Will.

" Repent and be saved! Accept My Holy Spirit and know we are one. Live by My light and see how much I love you. You will not stray if you always look to Me. Your life may not always be easy, but I will always be here for you. Do as I say and walk with Me. Shed no more tears, feel My joy. Share My joy with all whom I send to you. I love you so much! All those times you cried and told Me how much you love Me, I was holding you and crying so much more, because I felt your pain. (Daughter), you are forgiven, please believe, walk on; with faith in the love and peace I offer you; gifts I freely give to you, always. Please cry no more over your sins, I have forgiven you. I love you. Stay with Me; stay with Me."

Jesus, I love You. You know my heart. I am nothing without You. Help me to serve You always; I want for nothing else. I am here Lord, I am here. I am so very thankful Lord! I give You all praise and glory! Praise the Lord!