As I sit here writing, I know I am doing what God wants me to do, yet at times I feel as if it is only me that is benefiting from this. How do I know if God is using me to serve others or to serve Him, which is what I want to do. But here we have it again: "what I want to do." Maybe what God wants me to do is serve Him quietly and not in the "limelight". Not everyone can be at the pulpit, speaking to the masses. Maybe God wants me only touching and serving individual lives whom I come in contact with daily, one life at a time. Maybe he wants me looking at my own life. Am I trusting in Him through thick and thin? Is my faith solid?
I have my books for sale on Amazon. com and that is truly a miracle..But I was just over to the website of Kindle ebooks and I was so excited to see that two of my "Spirit Moves" ebooks had sold, but then as I scrolled across the page, I saw that 2 had been refunded. Do you know the feelings that washed over me and how hard I am praying now, not to be discouraged in what I am doing? Do you know how easy it would be to say, "this is NOT what God wants me doing, because if it was, wouldn't I be making money and not having books returned?" So I keep writing as I KNOW this is God's will for me. It may be in peaceful solitude that I write, but through God the trumpets can sound. So I am choosing to move forward with my faith and trust in God, giving all glory to God in all I do, whether it be big or small, God is in control. PTL