Truly, will I ever know You, Lord?
My heart and soul ache to know You;
yet, my flesh keeps me from You.
How do I cross over, Lord?
What do I have to give up;
my actual existence?
As long as I am flesh
I am tormented by human failings.
I feel the separation,
but through Jesus,
the barriers have fallen away.
What is this to say?
Jesus is Lord of my life.
To do less than He asks of me
is for me to fall short of who I am to be.
Though each day, I do fall short,
and yet, each day, I find forgiveness
through all Jesus has done for me.
The door is always open for me to enter
through His grace, I am forgiven.
There will always be trials and challenges
in life; it is my choices that will make the difference.
The choices can either result in joy or sorrow;
if I choose to follow Jesus, I will ultimately
have joy.

Whoever said "the calm is right before the storm" or "it is darkest before dawn", knows the anguish of "hitting rock bottom"; Where the only place to go is up. Yet, even in the "darkest hour" if you think of Jesus, you will feel hope, a sense of Light, because as you hold to Jesus' promise to never abandon you, you can feel the comfort of His love. So there is truly no reason for complete despair when you have Jesus. Sure things you have to go through may be very difficult, but to know that you WILL make it through because of Jesus, is cause for rejoicing. Feel the peace Jesus promises you as you cast your cares upon Him. Find rest in Jesus. (Matt. 11: 28-30)
Be grateful that you know Jesus as your personal Savior and all is well.
PTL

Feel no anguish in your soul
for choices you choose to make.
Be not troubled over things
which you have no control,
If the weight of the world
is self-inflicted, unneccessary,
change your path.
Listen to your inner voice speaking to you
of the journey you are on,
choose the right path.

We all go through hard times; I think that is just a part of life. It is what we do, who we turn to during those times, that makes a big difference in our attitude for us.
For me, to turn to God, is an automatic, because I know God is with me always, in easy and hard times. I feel when I am walking the path with Jesus, sometimes He lets me run ahead, but other times He may have to push me a little. I know He brings "physical" beings to me in especially difficult times, because He knows what it means to be human and sometimes just need that human contact. But if i look real close, I will see Jesus within them, speaking, to me, the words that Jesus Himself would say if he were here physically. That is a true blessing to recognize this. I thank God for all His gifts to me.

Jeremiah 12:3
"You, Oh Lord, know me,You see me, You know that at heart, I am with You."

Psalm 91: 14-16

"Because I cling to God, He will deliver me
He will set me on high because I acknowledge His Name
I shall call upon Him and He will answer me
He will be with me in distress
He will deliver me and glorify me
with length of days, He will gratify me
and show me His salvation.

Where are You God?

Have you ever had this question in your mind? Well I am going through this right now, and as many years as I have spent writing and talking about my faith in God, I seem to be having a very difficult time in this moment. How am I dealing with this?

I am trying to pray harder, though I am trying not to request anything from God in this moment. I feel as if I do not have the strength to request anything, in the first place, and then I have come to the realization that God must want me looking at something a bit differently. It may not just be the "prayers" and then the "answer". It must be the road in-between that He is wanting me to look at. I cannot say that I can see what that is, because I can't. I only know that I am living with the consequences I knew I would eventually meet up with because of the choices I made.

I am not living in the past, I am experiencing the now. The way I feel now, and how I can learn from God through what I am experiencing is a lesson God must want to teach me.

My point in sharing this with you is that when you do feel at the very bottom of your world, it is best to surrender your will to God. Perhaps sit quietly and just be in His presence; to feel His love, because God will always love you, no matter what. Make a point of looking away from all the things you thought you could, or would like to, control in your life. Give them all over to God and just see what happens when you trust and have faith in Him.

This is what I am trying to do now. It is a moment to moment action you have to take. I guess that is why they call it a journey.

God Bless you always and let's keep each other in prayer PTL

Close to You is always where I want to be
Close and safe
from anything that might harm me
With You, I never have to fear
Within, You are here. PTL

The shadow that crosses over my soul
shall be no more
for the light of You surrounds me
Let my soul rest in You
Let my heart be not troubled
Your grace sustains me
even in my darkest hour
I call and You hear me
Through You I am saved

Seek the Lord and He shall be found. I am experiencing God working in my life minute to minute. I watch and understand as things unfold. I pray for patience always, to be a loyal and faithful follower of Jesus. I praise Him always and give Him thanks for all my blessings. I love You, Jesus.