Where are You God?

Have you ever had this question in your mind? Well I am going through this right now, and as many years as I have spent writing and talking about my faith in God, I seem to be having a very difficult time in this moment. How am I dealing with this?

I am trying to pray harder, though I am trying not to request anything from God in this moment. I feel as if I do not have the strength to request anything, in the first place, and then I have come to the realization that God must want me looking at something a bit differently. It may not just be the "prayers" and then the "answer". It must be the road in-between that He is wanting me to look at. I cannot say that I can see what that is, because I can't. I only know that I am living with the consequences I knew I would eventually meet up with because of the choices I made.

I am not living in the past, I am experiencing the now. The way I feel now, and how I can learn from God through what I am experiencing is a lesson God must want to teach me.

My point in sharing this with you is that when you do feel at the very bottom of your world, it is best to surrender your will to God. Perhaps sit quietly and just be in His presence; to feel His love, because God will always love you, no matter what. Make a point of looking away from all the things you thought you could, or would like to, control in your life. Give them all over to God and just see what happens when you trust and have faith in Him.

This is what I am trying to do now. It is a moment to moment action you have to take. I guess that is why they call it a journey.

God Bless you always and let's keep each other in prayer PTL